One Week

Nova’s first week has come and gone. Here are some impressions I wrote down for her:

In about an hr and a half, it will be a week from the moment you arrived. The moment you were born and I was re-born.
You haven’t been much for crying, even from the start. You cry when I don’t feed you fast enough and that’s pretty much it.
You have the most beautiful face. Round and full. Your cheeks give me a chub attack and your lips are pouty and full.
We didn’t wash you for the first 5days. We just didn’t want to wash all of the newborn off of you.
I wasn’t sure you would fit into your tiny newborn clothes but you did and do! Everything else drowns you.
You love the bamboo blankets I bought you.
My favorite thing this week is when after you have eaten you pull off and place your chubby cheek on top of my boob and are content to stay there all night. Sometimes when you do this you give milk coma smiles. I feel so proud that I helped contribute to that contentment.
I also love your hot flushed face after you have eaten. You are exhausted and a little milk outlines your perfect pouty lips.
I thought the days would go by slow..but they don’t! I stare at you and before I know it another day has passed.
The first time I showered, a day or so after your birth, I cried the entire shower. Your dad was in there helping me because I was still so weak. Part of the reason I was crying was because you were in another room from me. I never want to be away from you.
The midwives said you have a “lusty” cry. I have to agree. You also have cleavage….What are we in for?
Your hands in your sleeper mitts are the cutest little balls of fabric.
You smell so good. I could sniff your hair, lips, cheeks and toes for hours and hours.
My hand is about the size of your back and I like to leave it there so I can feel and see your chest rise and fall.
Everyday I am sad you are one day older. The aging thing is going to be hard for me.
I would rather have you sleep on, next too or in arms reach of me. I have woken up a few times panicked because you are not right on top of me. We like to always be touching each other.
When you have been asleep for a few hrs and you wake up to feed, I’m always surprised at how much I missed you. Waking up in the middle of the night for you is not hard because I just love being with you and looking at you so much.
You have spent the majority of this week naked with just your diaper on. Skin to skin keeps us both warm and helps us bond.
You went for your first walk and your daddy carried you in the front carrier and you loved it.
I worked with you at my computer with you on my lap. It seemed so normal.
You were born with a hand next to the side of your head and still have those arms and hands always curled up next to you head.
Speaking of arms…I counted 8 rolls on one of your arms this week. 8!
You like to be soothed in an over the shoulder position or up against a chest.
The first time I sang you your song after you were born, you stared at me and stopped moving. You recognized it.
Your dad loves you a lot. He has been feeding me, answering the door and just taking care of business so you and I can rest and be together. He sacrifices for us.
I loved you the entire time I was pregnant with you, but after you were born I loved you even more. All I care about is your comfort and well being.
For your first outing to the pediatrician’s office we dressed you in a white onesie and gray polka dot leg warmers. You looked like you were about to do jazzercise.
I’m having a hard time finding a balance between Mom and Photographer. I want to take photos of you constantly but I also want to hold you and stare at you constantly. It’s the lot I will have to bear.
It’s raining tonight just like on the day you were born. I remember sitting in the tub in our bedroom and reaching out to touch the window during a contraction to see if the window felt cool. It did.
It’s almost 9:30. This was a break through time for me the night you were born. An hr later you were here and I couldn’t stop smiling.
I am still in shock that you came and that I live in a house with a baby.
I am your Mom and know I am…but it all feels so normal that I still have a hard time wrapping my head around the huge change.
I am excited to write out your whole birth story. I think I am ready.
You are hungry so I better wrap this up.
I never want you to change or grow or get older. I want you to be little forever……but then what about all the other stages?
Everyone is obsessed with you.
I am obsessed with you most.
I grew you!!!!!!
I miss you inside of me but am so happy you are here, healthy and all mine.
We are an amazing team. The three of us.

Love, Mom

Elizabeth {e tells tales} - Nova is so beautiful. Her little lips are the best. I love that you talk about how her aging is affecting you. I’ve been impatient to have this baby here now, but now I’m feeling like maybe I should be savoring each day of this growing more than I am.

Can’t wait to hear the birth story.February 27, 2011 – 3:17 pm

Kelly - absolutely beautiful. congratulations on such an amazing time in your lives.February 27, 2011 – 3:43 pm

Kimberly - Thanks for helping me to squeeze out a few joyful tears after reading your story. So happy for your beautiful family.
Much Love,
KimFebruary 27, 2011 – 4:12 pm

Grapefruit - I seriously have to stop reading your blog. Reading all of your bubbling new-mother thoughts mixed with such gorgeous photos of that yummy babe makes me want one of my own!!!! I should just stick to reading cooking blogs…February 27, 2011 – 5:23 pm

Jake - Gorgeous images, Rachel. She is a little doll. I’m super happy for you guys. Congratulations, again.February 27, 2011 – 5:41 pm

kirsten - What a sweet letter! I think, hands down, the hardest thing about being a mommy and photographer is that you see such lovely moments that need capturing but you want to just be IN those moments and really connect with them. I need my own Pete Souza dang-it!
Congrats!!!!February 27, 2011 – 7:37 pm

Marilee - We heard the news and we are so thrilled for you! There is nothing in the world like holding your own little baby snug and safe against you. Give Nova an extra snuggle from the Merrells. Hope we get to meet her before too long!February 27, 2011 – 8:35 pm

Dezi - She’s adorable! I love the thoughts, I totally agree. I love every minute with my little one. It’s like magic in your hands, life in a tiny package… congratulations!February 27, 2011 – 8:57 pm

Caroline Merrell - You look so good with a baby, Rachel! Congratulations! What a sweet baby girl. She’s so lucky to have you as her momma. Looking forward to hearing her birth story. You’re a super woman.February 27, 2011 – 9:38 pm

nancy - So beautiful to read your impressions…….keep them in a journal for her to read someday. You two are going to be the most incredible parents EVER!February 27, 2011 – 11:05 pm

nikki - Well said Rach. Beautiful and timeless.February 28, 2011 – 7:06 am

julia - those lips and cheeks are killing me. can’t wait to visit soon. keep writing these, you will treasure them.February 28, 2011 – 10:07 am

noelle - there really is nothing in the world like it. having a baby. she is a beauty.February 28, 2011 – 10:21 am

sarah - love the words…they go so well with the pictures. lovely post.February 28, 2011 – 10:41 am

Emily Hatch - I’m so happy for the three of you. What a beautiful family. Grant, I applaud what an amazing husband and father I know you are being. Rach, you have never looked so beautiful, and I love seeing you grow perfectly into the roll of motherhood. Love you all!February 28, 2011 – 12:33 pm

rachel cowan - oh my goodness, keep the pictures coming! she is so fun to look at and I love that name. You look all glowy, fresh, beautiful and rested…how is that with a week old baby?!!February 28, 2011 – 12:49 pm

Rachel - Actually the photos of us w her are when she was less than a day old…I think my cheeks are rosy from labor exhaustion. xo.February 28, 2011 – 2:23 pm

Bonny with a y - Congratulations! This time with your baby so precious and wonderful. I think it’s especially wonderful with your first because you can really focus on just the baby. I am so glad you are enjoying it.February 28, 2011 – 5:34 pm

vanessa joie - i’m going have to remind myself when i click over to your blog to have tissues ready. your little one is so lucky to have your as her mommie. she looks like a little pea fresh out of the pod.February 28, 2011 – 9:49 pm

Sarie - She is so gorgeous, Rachel! Such a beautiful, delicious little thing!February 28, 2011 – 11:26 pm

Anna - she is magic. those chubby cheeks are amazing.
thank you for sharing some of this preciousness. congratulations a thousand times over.March 1, 2011 – 1:09 pm

Lori Wong - Your family and words are so SO beautiful. Best wishes!March 1, 2011 – 10:22 pm

barbara smith - Love her! I am buying Miss Nova some lip gloss for the POUT! She is a beauty!…Love, BabbyMarch 2, 2011 – 9:16 pm

Shayna Proctor - You and everything that comes from you is beautiful.March 4, 2011 – 5:40 am

Jessica - CONGRATULATIONS!!!

She is absolutely beautiful and you all make a stunning family of THREE! We are so happy for you guys!

xox.March 4, 2011 – 12:38 pm

Mandy - Just BEAUTIFUL! Can’t wait to hear the birth story. Love to you and Nova.March 5, 2011 – 7:37 am

ryan - okay, you need to stop posting baby pictures. i keep showing my wife who keeps saying “ooooohh” “soooo cute” and i’m getting worried. we’re past that stage with three teenage boys. a new baby comes to our family one of two ways and neither is good. ;-)

she really is a beautiful baby Rachel. congrats to you guys!March 5, 2011 – 11:00 am

Nicky and Chris Johnson - Congratulations!!! Love Love the pictures and What a beautiful baby!! Looking forward to see you all again soon.March 6, 2011 – 6:04 pm

Deanne - Welcome to the world of motherhood. Sweet.March 10, 2011 – 1:28 pm